My Story

       I was born in Lafayette, Louisiana on May 17, 2000. I had a good childhood, I mostly liked SpongeBob, Pokémon, animals, my friends, and bug collecting. I was fairly normal, and I was always curious, skeptical, and passionate. I moved houses and switched into Catholic school, and I remember being told some things by adults that never sat right with me. The idea of hell as a fiery dimension of eternal conscious torment was always at odds with my intuition. I distinctly remember when at 7 years old, my religion teacher told me that God gave us free will, and I never agreed with that either. I always recognized even then that when I did something “wrong” it was because I didn’t know any better, not because I truly wanted to be evil. Yet I was being told these were the sins I would be judged by and potentially sent to hell for. Later on, my conviction that free will was an illusion would only become stronger through the acknowledgement of a simple truth. All our actions are determined by our preferences, and our preferences are predetermined. In other words we take action based on our likes and dislikes, and we don’t choose any of our likes and dislikes. This is why we don’t choose who we are attracted to, and we don’t choose which foods taste good to us and which ones don’t. Around age 14 I remember debating friends about this. The question of free will was of central importance to me, since if there was no free will, Hell would not be logical, and therefore could not be true (I couldn’t possibly entertain the idea that God isn’t logical). I also didn’t see any direct evidence for the existence of God, so I was a closeted agnostic, hoping I would see the evidence someday. From ages 7 to 18, if you asked me if I believed in God I would say yes just because I felt guilty for not believing.

       School was easy for me, and because of that I was lauded as a “smart person” by my friends and family. My ego developed around this idea that I was smart, and my self worth depended on that being true. At 13 I switched into a school known for its academic rigor, and I went from always being top of the class with no effort to being middle of the pack and struggling to keep up. By 14 I was in full-blown existential depression. I didn’t care about being the smartest anymore, it was clear that I never was, but I was confused at my place in the world. I figured if someone else could always do something I could do better than I could do it, my existence was meaningless. Silly conclusion to make, but I was a silly kid no doubt about it. Though the intensity of the depression would ebb and flow, it never left me throughout high school, even though I had a lot of freedom, many fun times, and great relationships with my classmates. Then I went off to college, hoping to find an end to the sorrow amid the new opportunities ahead of me.

       I graduated from Louisiana State University in 2023 with two degrees: psychology and ecological restoration. I experience what some might call a learning addiction. I prefer to say that I am an avid student of life. My greatest area of expertise is metaphysics, but I also love to study psychology, health optimization, exercise science, ecology, economics, geopolitics, engineering, and all other disciplines of science. One thing I made sure of though, was not to let my schooling get in the way of my education. I make sure to un-learn more beliefs than I learn, in order to understand the root of my being clearly. “All true knowledge is self knowledge.” -Bruce Lee. My interpretation is that knowledge acquired from one’s direct experience is superior to memorized conceptual frameworks, being that a conceptual framework only serves as a means to achieve an experiential understanding. Experiential understanding can only be observed as the embodiment of the principles at hand.

       The date of my awakening is unknown to me, but I think it took place in February of 2019. I remember the occasion clearly, I just have no record of the date it transpired. I witnessed the ego dissolve to a significant degree for the first time through the use of a combination of cannabis and two doses of LSD. I used cannabis daily at the time, and this was only my second time really experiencing LSD. The summer before, I developed the habit of using cannabis daily to cope with my worsening existential depression, which persisted until my awakening took place just before age 19. I’ll make the quick disclaimer here that awakening or enlightenment experiences that take place due to the use of psychedelics are just as valid as the ones that take place through other means, including meditation, near death experiences, sober introspection, breathwork, etc. There are many people who take psychedelics and never have awakening or enlightenment experiences, and there are many that never experience noticeable degrees of ego dissolution, even from high doses of psychedelics. (Hard to believe for me too, but trust me, I’ve met them). The awakening experience was quite uncomfortable, as I was identified with my ego at the time, and as I witnessed it dissolve, I believed I was dying. As my ego returned to me I realized that I could not be my ego, because when it was gone, I was still there. But in those days I didn’t know what the ego was, I had no context to describe my experience, so the best I could do at the time to attempt to describe the realization that took place was say, “nothing is real.” Which was half-true, because the reality I believed in (the ego’s reality) was indeed not as real as I thought it was.  I had a newfound understanding that nothing was real, yet my experience of life felt so real that I had no idea how to reconcile the situation. I knew I was on the verge of something incredibly significant, but I still had many questions left to be answered about what exactly I am, and what the nature of reality itself is. I noticed that a lot of the incredible fear I felt during the experience was associated with the addition of the cannabis, and I could tell the fear was restraining my ability to calmly decipher the truth at hand. So I planned for the next experience to be 4 doses of LSD and no cannabis involved. The date of my “enlightenment” was April 17, 2019, at the ripe age of 18 years old. I didn’t realize that this was an “enlightenment” occasion until years later though, as I was under the false belief that enlightenment meant the end of all negative thought and emotion. The word enlightenment unfortunately carries a lot of baggage in the minds of many spiritual seekers. The fact is, we are all already enlightened (yes, you too), and because we buy into the belief that we not, the true beauty of the nature of the self and reality is obstructed from our view. If the word enlightenment bothers you for whatever reason, feel free to think of it as a “deeper awakening,” because it's also true that realization ALWAYS goes deeper. The journey of self-discovery never ends.

       What did undoubtedly occur that day was the permanent end of suffering in the way that I knew it at the time. On that day my ontological questioning also permanently ended, as the ultimate truth of reality was revealed to me through experience. “There is truth and falseness in all things” sums up the secret knowledge well. This quote is taken from the book Siddhartha; it is the statement he gives at the end when his disciple asks him what enlightenment has shown him. I had not yet read the book, but the way I described my newfound understanding at the time was, “All truth is paradox,” which I still like to say today. In short, the way my suffering was permanently ended was that even though I continued to perceive negative thought and emotion, there was no longer any conscious belief in its reality. In fact, now I am immediately grateful for every negative thought and emotion that comes up from the subconscious because I know that experiencing this negativity provides deeper context of what I am not, so I can more clearly see what I am. I understand that the absolute plane of reality is where existential truth is held, and that our experience manifests through the dream-like illusion of the relative plane of reality. The only truth we can know for sure is that everything we perceive is illusory due its impermanent nature. The only thing that is permanent is impermanence, and if a thing is not permanent, it must therefore be illusion. The only “thing” that is real is no-”thing” at all. Nothing (no-thing) IS the fundamental substrate of everything. Nothing is every-"thing" that is real, because any “thing” other than the no-”thing” is impermanent. This is what you might call a mind-f*ck. The limits of the logical mind have been reached, and while there is much more experiential truth to learn, no deeper truth can be verbally expressed other than the words I discovered within myself that day. Another very poetic way of expressing this ultimate truth comes from Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj: "As wisdom I know I am nothing, as love I know I am everything, between the two my life flows."

       This is not to say that I do not continue to develop new conceptual frameworks. Quite the contrary, there is infinitely more learning that continues to be done after enlightenment, but there is a fundamental shift in the way it occurs. Before realizing that all truth is paradox, there is the sense that one is using conceptual frameworks to logically engineer one’s way to deeper truth, grasping for the state of experiential understanding. But once the paradoxical nature of reality is truly known, it is more accurate to say that further logical frameworks are reverse-engineered from the state of experiential understanding itself. So instead of trying to use logical frameworks to produce understanding, the enlightened being uses understanding to produce logical frameworks. The whole human psychological journey to enlightenment can be summarized as, “The need for a positive experience is a negative experience, and a positive outlook on a negative experience is a positive experience.” Understanding and applying this principle to our lives intentionally is the miracle, wherein the absolute perspective and the relative perspective become one through your conscious awareness of both perspectives. The fact that we experience both perspectives is what makes us human! If you’re curious to hear more about the miracle process of your self-actualization, make sure to watch this video! ( ) The Self-Actualization Blueprint also contains more practical details about how to implement the techniques for manifesting miraculous transformation in your life. It may also be worth noting that now, mind-melting ecstasy is always just a moment away in my experience.  Spontaneously, on quite a regular basis, every cell in my body starts to feel like it is exploding into ecstatic bliss beyond what words can describe.  Usually, I can even enter this state at will.  This is not meant to be a permanent state however, because in deep ecstasy one is not capable of moving the body or participating in other aspects of physical life to a significant degree.

       The funny part about it all was, I was not very familiar with spirituality or modern enlightenment pursuits at all. I didn’t believe in God. I never meditated, and had no awareness that there were contemporary spiritual teachers still alive on Earth. I learned about Alan Watts just a couple months prior, but didn’t take the words I heard from him too seriously until after my awakening. Soon after, I learned there were indeed many contemporary spiritual teachers who had come to similar realizations as myself, independently from one another just as I had done. So then began the never ending journey of integrating the truth I had now become acquainted with. At first I was frustrated (without identification of course) that my actions remained unrefined, that my behavior was not representative of the truth I felt I knew. I was baffled by my own unrelenting unconsciousness. So I have spent the majority of my time and energy since then studying the path to fully actualized embodiment, which I now know never really ends. Even Jesus Christ, known to be one of the most enlightened-embodied individuals ever to walk the Earth, has some of his last recorded words being words that represent the ego’s relativity/separation-based framework of belief, “Oh Father, why have you forsaken me?” It’s quite an understandable thing to say though considering he was being crucified at the time, and he also provided a statement representing the absolute perspective of awareness in tandem, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they are doing.” In Buddhism they say, “morality is the first and last training.” Meaning that, even though meditation (concentration and direct insight training) is also a necessary part of the path, mastering the personality is a never ending task. This is a good thing, because we wouldn’t want this beautiful dance to come to an end. We will continue evolving and expanding indefinitely, so the word “enlightenment” can mean as much or as little to you as you want it to. But again, the reason I won’t hesitate to say I’m enlightened if asked is because “enlightenment is when the wave realizes it’s the ocean”, and that is absolutely the realization that took permanent hold of my consciousness on April 17, 2019.

My Mission

        My mission is to know myself and to love myself, in order to become the creator, expressing authentically from the state of love.  My mission is to be of most efficient service toward ending the suffering of all conscious beings. All of the energy I acquire, whether that be in the form of physical health, financial wealth, or expanded consciousness, will be devoted to this mission.  I have identified what I believe to be the most pertinent aspects of our society to address in order to most efficiently bring an end to suffering as we know it.  These three most pertinent needs of our society are reversing environmental degradation, restructuring the education system, and reducing wealth inequality.  On a societal scale, the solution begins and ends with inner-purification.  But on an individual level, for those of us who have done the necessary inner work, we are now tasked with spearheading these efforts, as well as restructuring other important aspects of society.  So in working toward my ultimate goal, part of my plan is to co-lead Ecovision Alliance, an environmental restoration non-profit organization.  If you stick with me, you’ll be hearing a lot more about that.  Our modern society is largely divorced from nature, and reshaping it into an ecologically-integrated society would yield an incredible resurgence of the natural psychic energy necessary to evolve and alchemize the soul into the mystical paradigms of awakening.  Regularly being in and around natural ecosystems leads to meditation on their beauty, and this in due time allows for the effortless unfolding of the ego.  One does not need to know that it's working this way for it to work, and the subconscious change that would result from an ecologically-integrated society would undoubtedly facilitate the expansion of the collective awareness with an unmatched rate of efficiency.  In addition to this, I have created the Self-Actualization Academy, an educational curriculum designed specifically to systematize the process of psychological evolution. I also intend on continuing to refine additional decentralized education protocols for the rest of my life.  I don’t think this requires much explanation, but we can only be as evolved as our education system.  If we collectively continue to teach faulty paradigms as we have been, we will continue producing faulty results.  It doesn’t take Sherlock Holmes to see that almost everything about our society is being done completely ass-backwards.  Luckily the market-incentivized decentralized education movement is picking up a lot of steam right now!  

       Lastly comes the goal of reducing structural wealth inequality.  This is a really big goal; on an individual level, it mostly comes down to spreading awareness and education as to how it can be done, so I will explain the thesis here.  I will first state the obvious, that reducing wealth inequality and lifting people out of poverty is very conducive to their spiritual growth, as they will no longer have to spend the majority of their conscious energy satisfying the most basic human needs.  Wealth inequality has been a defining characteristic of civilizations throughout history, but the modern financial system has accelerated this divide to unprecedented levels. While many blame capitalism or market forces, the true culprit lies in the structure of our monetary system itself.  Wealth inequality is a complex issue, but one solution stands out as a way to dramatically reverse its trajectory.  And no, it’s not communism, quite the contrary.  Creating a truly free market will be what allows equal opportunity to financial abundance for the first time in history, as has always been the birthright of all.  It is a known principle of economics that in a free market, the cost of goods falls to the marginal cost of production.  It is commonly believed that western countries like America do function in a free market, yet the cost of goods generally does not fall over time, it rises.  In 2019 America, the average gallon of milk cost $2.58, and in 2023 the same gallon cost $4.34.  This is not because milk became 60% more valuable or scarce in 5 years.  This is because of intentional currency debasement, otherwise known as inflation, otherwise known as currency manipulation, otherwise known as theft.  Throughout history, currency manipulation has been the norm. People have grown so accustomed to it that they fail to see just how deeply it has stunted societal evolution.  Innovation and technology are fundamentally deflationary, meaning that as technology advances, we can do more with less.  Innovation has completely transformed efficiency.  The same 4,000 pounds of metal that once produced a steam engine can now be used to build a Mercedes-Benz.  Instead of spending hours performing financial calculations by hand or searching in encyclopedias for information, we now have AI that gives almost any information while performing complex calculations instantaneously.  With technological advancements allowing us to do more with less, you would expect that all prices, the price of food at the very least, would fall over time rather than rise.  The problem is that the innovation-driven, fundamental force of technological deflation is directly opposed by the debt-based fiat currency system that depends on continuous inflation to sustain itself.  

       The reason governments continue to let inflation run is because they must inflate away the debt that they take on.  This also benefits businesses and any organization that uses debt to fuel its growth.  This debt must be inflated away, because more debt is actually taken out than can be repaid, due to a practice called fractional reserve bank lending.  Fractional reserve bank lending is a practice where banks keep only a small portion of the money you deposit (like 10%) in their vaults and lend out the rest. For example, if you put in $100, the bank might keep $10 and lend out $90.  Because usually not everyone goes to withdraw all their money from the banks at once, this works, until it doesn’t.  This system increases wealth inequality because those with the most wealth own the most assets, like property and businesses, which retain their value as the currency they are priced in loses its value.  While this happens, the majority of the population, whose net worth mostly exists in their homes and savings accounts, hope that the value of their home rises enough to offset the devaluation of their savings. To make matters worse, inflation is like double theft, because not only does the life savings of the individual decrease over time by default, but they are also robbed of the innovation-caused, technological deflation they are supposed to be seeing the benefit of along with the wealthy.  

       Fractional Reserve Bank Lending with a fiat currency system necessitates inflation to reduce the real value of debts, and while this benefits asset owners and banks, it decreases savings and wages, making it so that those who control assets have an easier time accumulating more, and those who work for wages have a harder time accumulating assets, as wage growth historically does not match inflation levels.  This financial system creates a form of wage-slavery, where systemically built-in currency devaluation continuously increases wealth inequality. Those who own assets see disproportionate gains, while workers struggle to keep up.  This is what happens in the best case-scenario for users of global reserve currencies.  In the worst cases of countries that use their own fiat systems, their currency values are disproportionately affected by the decisions of the nations who manage global reserve currencies, and in addition are frequently subject to corrupt mismanagement within their own systems.  This is also why many countries have experienced times of hyperinflation or very high inflation as a result of fraudulent excess money printing by their own federal governments.  Some of these countries include Brazil, Egypt, Argentina, Yugoslavia, Peru, Ukraine, Nigeria, Mexico, Vietnam, Turkey, Israel, and more.  These “boom and bust” cycles are an instilled characteristic in a debt-based fiat currency system.  Also known as the “debt cycle”, it is composed of 4 parts: the first stage of sound money, characterized by low outstanding debt levels where debt growth spurs economic productivity; the debt bubble stage, where the investment debt grows so large that incomes cannot continue to support paying interest on it (also known as a debt spiral); the top stage where the bubble bursts and economic contraction ensues; and the final deleveraging stage, where debt and investment are reduced during prolonged economic contraction back to levels that incomes can support, returning back to stage one to begin the cycle again.  These economic downturns always benefit the wealthy.  When the economic depression hits, only the richest individuals can afford to buy the assets that have temporarily lost value.  This dramatically increases wealth inequality with the conclusion of each cycle.  For example, since the year 2000 the U.S. has seen the .com bubble crash, the housing market crash of 2008, and the stock market crash of 2020.  From 2000 to the present day, the total percentage of wealth in the U.S. owned by the top 1% is estimated to have increased from 30% - 40%.  To be clear, this means that 10% of all of the wealth of the entire United States has been transferred into the hands of the top 1% of wealthy individuals since 2000.  It’s estimated that the last 5% increase occurred since 2020 alone, due to the 5 trillion dollars the U.S. government printed in order to prop up the economy during the lockdowns.  The point of saying this is not to demonize the wealthy, they are just making smart decisions in a broken monetary system.

       With the advent of cryptography and proof-of-work technologies, decentralized currency is born.  The crypto ecosystem functions in layers, with the layer 1 base token making the foundation of the system as a neutral reserve asset with transparent transactions.  Bitcoin is layer one.  For more variability in use, it can be instantly converted to other crypto tokens at the time of need, such as the popular privacy coins that keep transaction data hidden.  Because these tokens are coded in a way that the supply of them cannot increase beyond a certain point, they are inflation-proof.  This means that as the fundamental force of technological deflation continues to occur, the price of all goods will continue to fall relative to the base layer currency.  When a deflationary environment allows a nation’s broad consumer base to increase the real value of its wealth, economic productivity grows faster, without the need of taking on excessive debt.  It grows more sustainably as well, leading to increased total efficiency in the long term.  This decentralized monetary system rewards saving money to be used wisely, rather than the frivolous spending that is encouraged by a constantly devaluing currency, as well as being a means to systemically reduce wealth inequality through the action of the free market alone.  It also incentivizes true value investing, rather than the highly speculative investing characteristic of economic debt-spiral environments, which is arguably more efficient at creating immediate quality of life improvements for the average person.  This system also solves the issue of inflated housing markets, lowering the barrier for individuals to become homeowners.  Homes in America are treated as stores of value in addition to their utility value, yet the theory behind this action is fundamentally flawed.  Homeowners expect their property value to rise, yet houses naturally lose utility over time as they deteriorate and require increasing maintenance until inevitable demolition.  In a decentralized currency system, housing prices fall to their utility value while the currency we use every day becomes the real store of value it should have been the whole time, the store of value that we unconsciously try to work against the forces of nature for our homes to be.  We have never before seen a monetary system with the true equality of opportunity that can be provided through decentralized cryptography and proof-of-work technology.  For all of history, government leaders, the wealthy, and bankers have colluded to extract the energy of the working class with the use of fraudulent law systems, unethical contracts, and currency manipulation.  Currency freedom is an overlooked but all-important freedom, as collectively we have never experienced it, yet it is undoubtedly the most significant problem that has ever faced societal structure.  Now, a righteous path to the end of this abuse is being made clear.  It is up to us to make it happen.  Luckily, this result is inevitable; it’s already “baked in the cake” as they say.  This is obvious when you see the image below, showing the average price of an American home over time in both USD and BTC.  An abundant future awaits us, so let’s do our part and spread the word.  If you want more information on this topic straight from the experts, check out this video on Broken Money by Lyn Alden (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jk_HWmmwiAs), and the book Price of Tomorrow by Jeff Booth.  Thank you for taking the time to read my mission.  We are all in this together.

Acknowledgements

Here is a list of people who have been profound influences and teachers for me. We all stand on the shoulders of the giants who have come before us, paving the way for us to add our unique contribution to the kingdom of heaven. You can think of this as the “works cited” page for what I’ve learned and who I’ve become. In no particular order:

Sadhguru

Aaron Abke

Alan Watts

Eckhart Tolle

Mooji

Frank Yang

The Law of One

A Course in Miracles

The Kybalion

Jesus Christ

Neale Donald Walsch

Joe Dispenza

Tarrence Mckenna

Paul Chek

Daniel Ingram

Bashar

Rick Doblin

Albert Hoffman

Paul Saladino

Joseph Everett

Ben Patrick

Neal Hallinan

Chong Xie

Ido Portal

Neven Parr

Jana Dixon

Siddhartha

Robert F. Kennedy Jr.

Jack Kruse

Lyn Alden

Luke Gromen

Jeff Booth

Zach Bush

J-Griff

Leo Gura

Glorian

Astral Doorway

Ram Dass

Forest Knutson

Paramahansa Yogananda

CloZee

Robert Kiyosaki

David Michie

Henepola Gunaratana

Satya Ji

Mike Chang

Shi Heng Yi

J. Cole

Wim Hof

Bruce Lee

Paramahamsa vishwananda

Mantak Chia

Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

Paulsoaresjr

Pyropuncher

Ash Ketchum

Rock Lee

Naruto

All Might

Goku

Gandalf

Spongebob

And of course to all my family and friends over the years

I couldn’t have done it without you, thank you